“The invisible ground always rise for bold steppers”
— Augusto Schneider
I’ve been testing myself often for some time now.
What first came to me as something necessary, almost like an urgent pull, ended up becoming the path itself.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t feel it’s necessary anymore.
But, what changes is actually the result I look for in every step I take.
Long story short: I wake up a day in my room, injured knee, no sense of purpose in my life.
Strangely, it was great for my creativity at the time. I made some drawings that I still love to this day.
But then it happens, you know?
It was like a very strong trigger through my whole body.
I wasn’t satisfied.
Not with the situation I was living.
Not with the lack of motion istself.
It was deeper than that. Like I was trying to make my whole life make sense in a blink of an eye.
And so, I felt it: the day of truly starting to living my life arrived.
I’ll try to explain the sensation, though even after two years, it’s still hard for me to grasp how it came into my life and perception.
Since I was a kid, I always thought about my future self;
I believe this happens to everyone growing up.
We’re always wondering who our future version will be and what that version will achieve. Right?
It feels like something great is bound to happen at some point in our lifetime. Something meant to exist.
I’m not talking about big societal measures… the money and fame paradigms we confuse in childhood.
Those things are fine. But, not the point.
The point is the visualization of a “knowing version” that must manifest here, no matter the circumstance.
Maybe it’s just me… but anyway.
Back in that period (with the drawings and the knee), I started to feel that same sensation again. The one that pulls you out of your own body.
I had to act… and I did.
My reading, for some time know, has been about how reality really works
I’ve explored everything (almost) from physics to spirituality and how they overlap. Maybe it begin after I read The Teaching of Buddha (you can find this one book here if you’re interested). I remember that I found this book somehow and was curious about it (a bilingual edition I found when I was trying to improve my English).
I could read to practice and gather the meaning of the teachings. win-win
After that, I had a conversation with a friend about how science and spirituality might not be so different. He thought that would be a good thing for me to read The Tao of Physics: An Exploration of the Parallels Between Modern Physics and Eastern Mysticism from 1975 book by physicist Fritjof Capra (this one you can find right here).
And I couldn’t stop there.
I had to go further, find more connections, and actively experiment with relating those very different realms.
Also came to me the one thing that I keep repeating in my head for a while by now:
“It’s all the same”
(everything)
So, in the same energy of parallels and cross-views, I will drop a simple but deep question to begin this Letter:
→ What if the key to living your dream life wasn’t choosing between discipline and freedom, but holding both, perfectly balanced, wherever life goes?
Go and Live the Concepts you don’t stop talking about
Everyone talks almost the same here.
We’re always talking about what we believe to be true, how do we believe the world works and kind of what’s right and wrong about all the things.
But how many actually live by the way they believe?
I used to have the habit of believing in people. Today I can say that I had this habit: cause actions speak louder than words to me now.
I still give the benefit of the doubt to every single person, tho… but I observe; the same way others observe me: my actions, what I say and how they relate.
And my conclusion (not to anyone specific person, but in general): many people talk about self-awareness, manifestation, and living their dream, but treat it as entertainment instead of lived reality.
It is easy indeed to be in your own head then building life continually.
That said, I’m not writing this in judgement.
It’s har to face life’s daily struggles while tyring to stay true to your essence; like disrupting yourself and challenge the status quo.
(sometimes the status quo isn’t even clear)
Indeed is an attempt to bring the attention to the present moment, by focusing on what you’re repeatedly doing day by day.
What I mean is: without embodied practice, these ideas stay as intellectual ornaments — beautiful, but disconnected.
“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, then, is not an act, but a habit.
— Aristotle, Nicomachean Ethics
“To become is about living the Concepts you write about, not just thinking them”
That is the exactly thought that hits me about a month ago.
How could I keep writing about manifesting reality and living without fear, if I kept hiding from my own intuition?
Yeah, a very trick question.
Traveling with untitledfolderr.co, maintaining early-morning routine (going from Hostel to Hostel, working from Hotels without kowning the next step), acting as both experimenter and subject in my own philosophical journey: is what anchors virtue in my life.
Because it’s what I’ve spent a lifetime talking about, suggesting to others.
However, how to conciliate The Dream of traveling with my work and actually traveling and working?
How to anchor presence in being and at the same time challenging perspective to reach new understanding?
“Am I really living what I say I believe, or just talking about it?”
The gap between your ideals and your daily life can create self-doubt and even shake your trust in your own path.
But it’s very important to test your limits (by what I can say about my life) and this whole experience is always meaningful when you have the courage to put yourself in the situations your soul will thank you for.
I don’t fully know.
But I certainly believe.
